They come in all shapes and sizes and emerge for different
reasons. A fall from a bike. Chickenpox. Poison ivy. An abuser’s hand.
Those are physical scars. But what of emotional scars?
Bullying. Rejection. Betrayal. An abuser’s hand or tongue.
Some can be seen. Some we cover up with makeup, smiles, lies. How do we treat them? How do we learn to live with and even embrace them?
I’m working through a period of scars. Physically, poison ivy has been raging through my body for nearly two weeks, laughing at my attempts to ward it off. Midway through a second course of steroids which, if not administered carefully can leave their own set of scars, I’m still scratching. Lotions and potions and baths and busyness have all helped but not eradicated the roaring rash.Emotionally, I’m experiencing a bit of a jolt. I applied
quite a bit of effort to a writing project and its attendant requirements,
which included not a few hours of classwork and out-of-the-box thinking, all of
which have been rejected by the powers that be. I feel badly for myself and the
folks who partnered with me in prayer and devoted time to helping me perfect
the piece I submitted for publication. I’ve written about this sort of thing
before when it took the wind out of my sails, deflated my balloon – pick your
metaphor.
Yesterday, though, when I absorbed the news that my work had
not made the cut, disappointment rather than dejection entered my soul. This
may be less than rising above, but it certainly beats going under.
In my book, that’s progress.
Today I’m going to a holiday gathering to celebrate our
nation’s 250th birthday. I’m going red, white, and blotchy. Our nation deserves
to be celebrated, even though a citizen born nearly 200 years after its
inception has a rash. The founding fathers don’t care that I look less than
beautiful today. On my best day I can only manage attractive, but I try not to
let that stand in my way.
It’s not about that. Physical beauty comes and goes. It’s
about the beauty of an idea born 25 decades ago and why that still matters
today.
It’s also not about an editor’s dismissal of my attempt to
contribute to the national dialogue. If victory had been Lincoln’s
criterion for participation, he would have stepped aside after the first of
many personal and professional losses.
A side note here: in the preceding paragraph, I chose the
word victory over its synonym, success, believing that success
encompasses much more than material victory. In fact, failure has a funny way
of spurring humanity onto future success.
Let that sink in.
“I’m an old lady! “I bellowed. “If I can do it, you can at
least try to do it!”
The gym teacher followed my challenge with his own words of
wisdom.
“You know what, kids? Mrs. Williams showed up today. She’s
not home watching TV. She’s getting out there and participating. Let’s all join
her.”
I wish I could say everyone jumped on the bandwagon then and
there, but we still had some slackers. I’d like to think, though, that a few
kids who otherwise might have settled for less than their best instead gave it
a shot.
Giving it a shot. What a concept.
So, instead of wearing red, white and blue today, I’ll throw
on the most comfortable thing I can find, color notwithstanding, and rejoice
with family and friends. The rosy bumps and areas I’ve scratched black and blue
over lily-white skin can serve as patriotic colors.
Instead of my article showing up in a national forum, I’ll
be posting it on my blog. I’m forever thankful for the faithful readers whose
interest and encouragement has kept that platform alive for over 15 years.
Showing up. What a concept.
The American Revolution left scars, scars, and more scars.
No one comes through war or any kind of overhaul, for that matter, without
scars. It’s the nature of the beast. Breakage often precedes building. We break
ground before erecting buildings and planting crops. We break the skin to
perform surgery. And we break chains before exercising the freedom those chains
denied.
I’m including a list of Scriptures that celebrate the perseverance upon which the United States of America was founded. Our country was built on strength, sustenance, and solutions, all of which came from unseen hands which are no less present today than they were 250 years ago. God bless America, and God bless the spirit of pluck that can’t be extinguished by setbacks. God bless us, everyone.
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